One step closer.

 

Without realizing it is already May and it has been almost 4 months since the biggest life changing event incident happened to my family. I must admit that the first two months of the semester really destroyed me as a person. The fact that my summer vacation turned into a nightmare was really hard to believe. I am taking Exercise and Sports Science for my degree and of course I have to learn things such as giving first aid and etc. So it made it harder for me to focus because I couldn’t run from thinking about the incident. Plus the same picture of the incident kept on replaying in my mind. At times I had hard times breathing and I felt suffocated, and when I was in lectures, my mind went completely blank and I just couldn’t listen to what my lecturers were talking about. I spent times crying in the shower, buses and trains. Yeah, it was that bad. But I tried to keep going. I swear I tried because I felt especially bad to those who sponsored for my tuition fees for this semester.

At a certain point, I decided to bring myself up again because I know my dad wouldn’t like to see me acting the way I did. So I told my housemates to write me motivational notes so that I could stick them on my board, whenever I miss talking my dad, I write letters to him (in which they will remain undelivered in this world), I tried writing motivational quotes for myself and I tried giving myself a pep talk every morning in front of the mirror and during autumn break, I went traveling with my friends and just enjoyed the good companies. Every time I was feeling extremely depressed, I kept giving myself reasons to why I can’t behave the way I did. I realized that I am the one who is in charge of how I feel. As sad as I may be, I am the one who decides whether I should let myself getting destroyed because I am in control of my emotions. I gave myself some thoughts and I realized that there are people who are going through worse than what my family and I are going through. I also realized that whenever I feel sad, it was me who decided to feel sad and that same goes with being happy.

I may look like a woman with a heart of steel. I may look like I am strong inside out. But just with a fact that I am a human being, I do feel sad, and I am fragile. So I am very thankful and feeling very blessed with the fact that I am surrounded with good friends. The friends who constantly give me mental supports and keep checking up on me every once in a while to see whether I am doing okay or not. To all my friends, thank you so much I just don’t know how to pay this debt. Just letting you know, I am starting to accept the reality and fate that Allah has given me.

 

Here’s a short video of my autumn break trip to Brisbane, Queensland, Australia.

 

 

Spring/Autumn break ’16

Friends, travel, food.  What else could be the happiest thing that I’ve done throughout my spring break this year? At first I thought my spring break was not gonna be as lit as my previous breaks when I was still in high school. But who knew that my spring break this year was one of the remarkable breaks I’ve ever had (away from family)? When I first heard that my housemates’ friends were coming from Melbourne and Brisbane and stay at our place for the break, I thought  I was doomed. Ah, another awkward ‘hi, hello’ thing again. And of course I was feeling a little bit anxious because I was worried that I might not be able to break the ice. I was worried that they might not be as crazy as I am because I can seriously get out of hand if I’m excited lol. Plus, I was just about to get closer to my new housemates. Yikes.

Ah as expected, it was awkward ‘hi, hello’ when I first met them but that didn’t last long. Hours past and viola ~  Right after I got back from the Malaysian Ball, all 10 girls in the house got along with each other. We talked and we laughed for hours past our bed time forgetting the itinerary that we had for the next day; and the journey started then.

The next morning, EVERYONE was late. E V E R Y O N E. Boys, girls, all of us were rushing. We were supposed to meet at Central Station by 730AM but our schedule was delayed about an hour. Not guilty because it was pretty early for us. During the 2-3 hours train to Blue Mountains, the girls went back to sleep but I wasn’t sure about the guys. Probably they were not sleeping throughout the whole journey since I heard them talking the whole time. Upon our arrival, we got off the carriage like goats getting released to eat grass at a field. To express the greatness of our trip to Blue Mountains, the one day trip was worth it though I pretty much gambled the trip because money was such a huge pain in an ass. It was the end of the month, and I was broke and the money that my dad wired in was taking forever to get into my bank account. But fun is fun. No regret.

Long story, short:

Day 1: Blue Mountain + Time for Thai for dinner after we got back from Blue Mountains. Got home around 10-11 PM ish, stalked each others’ Facebook, commented on old pictures. Probably the highlight of our break.

Day 2: Sydney sightseeing. First, we went to Chinese Garden of Friendship and took lots of royalty pictures. HAHAH. Then, we took a ferry, passed the harbour bridge, went to Opera house, the usual tourist trip y’know. Lots of pictures and lots of love. Then we had dinner at Pancake on Rocks, and they made the best pancake I’ve ever tasted in my 20 years life. It was bomb dot com. Btw, it is recommended. A must try! hehe

Day 3: Bondi to Cooge coastal walk. A lot of walking. A L O T. And a lot of stopping for pictures too. Honestly I couldn’t remember what and where we ate for dinner. Probably it was Time for Thai again but, didn’t skip dinner fosho.

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The Joyahs ft. Mirasal (MIA)

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Day 3_Group picture wee~

Day 4: Souvenirs stop and we went to  Paddy’s Market, a very well-known hotspot for cheap souvenirs. After that we went for ice skating cuz it was free but we sucked at it. Still no regrets.

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Last Joyah’s group photo taken before Lins & Mun and Dee and Tasha left

Anywaaays, if you got a super fast wifi and a lot of data to waste, click the videos to watch the fun trip 😉

What’s up Jubail? Pt.1

For the past 8 years, I grew up and lived in a small town named Yanbu’ and right after graduating high school, my family and I moved to the eastern region of Saudi Arabia. Currently we are staying in Jubail, another Royal Commission city just like Yanbu except, it is much more fun in Jubail !

I may have no friends here and my friends may be my mom and her friends but I can’t lie the fact that Jubail is a fun and beautiful city! Not trying to get anybody so worked up but Yanbu is really nothing compare to Jubail. HAHAHA I seriously can’t believe that I lived there for nearly 10 years! Good lord. But what’s there in Jubail ? Come and check out the pictures below and you won’t missed out!

Fresh market where you can mostly find men only

But, it is not packed at all ! You’ve got a lot of space! No need to worry about getting bumped into others 😉

What else though? Fish market is not that special anyway. Okay, so in Jubail we always have different activities every month. Those events are usually organized by KRMJ (Kelab Rakyat Malaysia Jubail). Yes, in Yanbu you can literally invite everyone to your party but in Jubail, nope. Interestingly, they have Jumanisa’ (mommies group), and kelab remaja (WOW! You can find jodoh too if you want) So one of the events that I’ve attend was the desert camp.

Nobody wants to go during summer to a desert but if it’s during winter, it is so much fun!

You get up and play the ATV without having to worry about wearing your abaya

And of course, BBQ session at night

So obviously I can’t hide the fun good times I had

 

Winter/Summer ’16

Summer in Northern Hemisphere but, it was winter for me since I live in Southern Hemisphere. Nothing special just the season got a little messy. Anyways, summer break is always my favorite because it is one of my breaks that I got to see my fambam and spend a lot of time with them without worrying about anything. You name it, grades, alarm clock, food to eat, transportation. My soul was free from stress.

So let’s catch up to what happened in summer.I know my post is very late but I guess better late than never 😀

I had fun. A lot of fun. My face was glowing like Edward Cullen in Twilight. There was so much fun that I don’t think I can even describe it. But that should not be a worry because I vlogged. I literally took video of the whole summer trip in which y’all can check it in the video below:

To be honest, it was hard for me to edit the video because I obviously couldn’t fit my whole fun month in just few minutes! But I tried. I couldn’t edit the whole trip but at least the fun clips are there hehe….

Last summer my fambam and I went for the Malaysia road trip. From Johor, we went all the way to the Northern part of Malaysia ~ On our way, we stopped by a lot of places visiting extended relatives mostly from my dad’s side because mom’s side are mostly in Johor. heheh… So we covered almost the whole Malaysia (except pantai timur and borneo though) … you name it… Melaka, Negeri Sembilan, Kedah, Perak, KL, Penang… all covered! And of course, I’m very blessed, grateful and couldn’t ask for more than this! After the road trip, it wasn’t the end of my vacation though. hahah. I still had a lot of fun in Johor which is my hometown. Guess what was the highlight of my vacation when I was in Johor? HERHERHER

I frickin watched a football match at a stadium for the firstt timee in 19 years! It was seriously so exciting! AND our team won on the home ground ! WAHEHEO

More to come~ Look forward to my spring/autumn break ’16 ~ 😀

Throwback high school

Hey guys! I got that throwback, missing people moment today and guess what I found? A lot from last year! Here are the three videos that I found while looking through my folders.

A video of my class, Class of 2015 walking around the school for a clap out.

 

A video of my class, Class of 2015 receiving our diploma; officially completed High school.

A very motivating speech from my beloved teacher and friend, Ronnie Caldwell (still need to find my time to post this up).

I was just watching these two videos that my dad recorded and I was literally like damn. I miss high school. I should have spent my last year in high school better while sending lots of love to everyone.

Check those videos out, if and only if you are interested! Otherwise, leave it. HEHEHEH

Week 4 Special!

Do you really think it was special? HAHA you fool . Lol kidding xD

Anyway, I was supposed to have an update about last week but I was really busy and I am getting busier each day! STRESS! So if you are/were wondering what happened last week, why Nura also didn’t update about last Sunday, let me answer your question and confusion. Hahaha . I only went on a Sundate with Afiqah because there was a trackwork that day and the trains that go from Nura’s place to the city didn’t work. Shucks. Movingg right along ~

We planned to go to TAFE’s library, get our work done and then go to Circular Quay because it was the Opera House opening day– free of charge to get in there! But then first, unluckily the library didn’t open ! So Afiqah suggested that we work on our assignments at a cafe because we literally had no where to go . No backup plans. But like duhhh, cafe + assignment + friend = work for 5 mins then talk for the rest of the time; which was exactly what we did. As a regular customer, for lunch of course we ended up going to … GUESS! Yes, you are correct! Time For Thai! So we enjoyed our lunch there and decided to make our move to Circular Quay. Half way through the tunnel, we realized that we have to register first to get in even though it was free of charge but we didn’t because we didn’t. So, U-turn hahaha and we ended up talking nonsense, went to priceline (a pharmacy) and Afiqah got herself a sunscreen, etc. We ended up going home after that hahahahah

But on the same day it was my housemate’s birthday and so the rest of my housemates and I planned to surprise her! Not bad huh? Blew a lot of balloons, got pizzas, and other snacks, guitar and a little bit of Birthday song preparation. Ahh, you know the party stuff hahaha. So yeah we got things ready and started our moves by 8:00 PM. Had so much fun and the whipping cream that we bought, we ended up wasting it on each other, and on the floor which made me ended up showering AGAIN at around 12AM and cleaned the house at 11PM. Amazing. A night to remember.

So what’s so special about week 4? What’s so special about it? Nothing hahah. But this is my first video that I’ll be posting because I’d like to share the time I spent with my Afiqah babe and surprise birthday late party! So I guess that should be a little bit special eh? But, heads up… It will be a very crappy video because I don’t really like editing videos and I’m putting the video up because the events were different.

(sorry, my internet is being such a butthole; the video won’t upload and my video editing is crappy)

^ HAHAH, I finally got it uploaded xD sorry!

P/S: If you want to know about what happened last (last) Sunday, check out Nura’s blog . It was a fun lazy Sunday 😉 + this post was written 10 days ago HAHA